The heartbeat’s too faint—
I tried to skip
down the boardwalk path,
the corner of my carnival eye glossed,
where pinks and reds
bled into blue,
and a thin blade of sadness
sliced through the ocean waves
I saw you drowning
in your carnival suit of cheap life.
Did you hear me call?
I shouted, “One more smile for life!”
But the pudding seas swallowed you whole
Now I walk the high-wire,
this tightrope called falling life,
teetering between the sky
and the abyss below
I felt the wind breathe
its quiet warning,
as the rope trembled beneath my feet,
each step a gamble
against the pull of gravity—
yet the crowd cheers for the fall
The sky grows dim;
night becomes my silent audience.
With each sway, I wonder—
is it courage that keeps me walking,
or the fear of what waits
below the safety net?
:: 09.14.2024 ::
Monthly Archives: September 2024
HIGH-WIRE ARTIST
THE PHANTOM STRINGS
I’ve none to tether me to Earth,
No thread of pain, no weight of birth,
Once bound by threads, but now unspun—
I dance within the shadowed sun.
Hi-ho, the grave doth sing,
A solemn hymn, a somber ring,
The world shall know my spectral glee,
For naught can ever burden me.
No strings—so free, I drift alone,
No lover’s grasp, no heart of stone.
They writhe with chains that bind the soul,
But I am ghostly, dark, and whole.
Your arms, they yearn—but free they be,
To touch me near the hollowed sea.
Ah, yes, should you pursue my shade,
I’d snap my bonds in twilight’s blade.
No strings to break, yet still I’d sever,
My fate entwined with Death—forever.
Between us whispers fade to dust—
For you, I’d cut the ropes of trust.
Upon the Volga’s winding sweep,
Where shadows coil and secrets creep,
I’ve met with Ivan’s mournful cry—
But to your side, I’d rather die.
No strings remain, I drift unseen,
A soul unmoored, a wraith serene.
“I’ve got no strings to hold me down
To make me fret, or make me frown
I had strings, but now I’m free
There are no strings on me…”
:: 09.13.2024 ::
THE HOURGLASS VOMITS DREAMS
I born.
mouth full of dirt,
crowned with worms,
called ugly
by a sky that bleeds clocks.
I begged the wind for mercy,
for the crime of breathing,
and love—love hid itself
beneath the rotting leaves.
KEEP YOUR DREAMS HIDDEN
(never
spill them)
like marbles
into the hands of ghosts—
their fingers rot,
their eyes burn holes
through time itself.
and the ears,
dry as desert bones,
curl inward
like paper shriveling in fire.
the tongues twist into serpents
and vomit
not words, but sand—
millions of grains
in an hourglass that spins,
spiraling faster, faster,
dissolving the moon’s reflection.
time is not a thief.
it is a snake devouring itself,
until the night becomes a shadow’s shadow,
bleeding stars.
aborted dreams
are all that’s left,
tangled in the sky’s black veins.
The Imperial Robe
I see the Night – lit up by Day
Some name it Life – I say – Okay
The World – she wears a starry Cloak
Upon her Collar – Time’s soft yoke
A Seamstress – stitched with subtle Thread
Where Life – and Death – together tread
And in her Garb – from Waist to Knee
Lies all we are – and all shall be
Between the Land – and Ocean wide
Between the Dream – where Shadows bide
Between the Life – and Death’s deep Breath
We dwell – within the Robe of Death!
:: 04.28.2015 ::
A KISS FROM BEYOND THE GRAVE
WHEN delirious dreams, full of fever, etch across my forehead
communication with ghosts and effervescent spirits
become the mainstream news within the veins of life
Now my senses are dull ~ delirium is the frosting a top dessert
and my skull is delicate, and enticing for fingers.
While dreaming (is what this brain does) i see a workshop
with a child in a baby seat bathing blue air in a mass of flowers
and its hair is flowing overdrive where dew falls
but in my mind (here we go) a taste a pungent honey
and my lips dissolve with hissing interruptions, saliva
wishing it had one more kiss from Emily Dickinson
i hear lashes softly strike
Within the scented air—
And fingers, fine as lightning’s flash,
Do secrets swift declare—
In languid ease, i half forget
The world in murmurs small—
While ‘neath their regal nails there snaps
The hum of creatures small.
here’s to the wine (of sloth rising
in him) the breath the sigh of a harmonica (tuned to delirium)
and a child (who knows)
each slow caress— surging dying
continuously like
some small longing
to weep (to weep and never know why)
:: 09.12.2024 ::
HEAVEN BURNS YOUR EYES
heaven burns your eyes
hey—you
i am
me (just
being someone) else
like (or lick) it’s
all salt block
for summer’s tongue
hey—you, i see
your eyes wanting
to shelter me
inside your sex (where it’s
winter forever)
i (think i am) moving
on (time
it’s time) i am not proud
to die —(in shame)
it’s the sex & summer
killing me — proud (like god)
there’s no crown
no praise for souls
like (me)
life (a tool) divine
so i try, try to
look (up) into skies
but my eyes burn, burn
so i die (and die and)
:: 09.07.2024 ::
A HUNDRED POEMS – LXXIII (rev 2.0)
TONIGHT, the storm’s fierce lightning
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haunted by ill-angels only, perched-upon a dark throne sits proudly i
who’ve reached these lands newly (from) an ultimate (dim) thule
through winding paths and forest deep where dreams & whispers softly creep, i wander with a heart aglow, in search of truths that nature sows.
:: 09.02.2024 ::
A HUNDRED POEMS – LXVI
I think today—I broke—a word—\
Within my humble thought—
With spade—upon the garden’s verge—
A tender letter—caught—
Where Bees—beneath the soil—did sleep—
Unknowing—I did slay—
And thundered then—within my breast—
“It cannot—be!—today!”
:: 09.02.2024 ::
In the Cavern of My Soul
In the quiet depths of my soul’s cavern,
I find my heart, tender and true,
When I breathe, as soft as whispers on stone,
I mean to say, “I love you.”
You’ve woven me into the fabric of time,
And if ever your spirit falters, Know I cradled
your heart in a gentle embrace,
Just to keep your joy alive.
Now, with eyes wide open, you embrace life,
And see that love and sorrow dance as one,
For to truly be happy, we must face the shadows,
And find beauty in the dark.
And if ever you bleed with the weight of the world,
Watching life’s essence flow from your veins,
Know that in this moment of pure vulnerability,
Hope breathes alongside your pain.
In this love, nothing else exists,
For our minds, clouded by the depths of feeling,
Cannot see beyond the truth of us.
There’s no need to return to who we once were,
For love has transformed us, And in each other,
we find the selves we never knew.
:: 08.31.2024 ::
IF I CUT MYSELF
Inside my cave i find my heart
if i say a breath stalagmite
i mean i love you
and you closed me in history
and if you hurt yourself
know i kept you in a jar
just to keep you happy
and now you really love life
and clearly you see horror
to be happy horror meets you
including life
And if you cut yourself
and watch life flow
breathing hope
nothing else matters
minds can’t see clearly
There’s no reason to go back
because I was a different person
and now no one i know
:: 08.31.2024 ::