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Hell is ‘O’

Hell
is ‘o’
Hell’o’_
Simple: sell the kids
for food
\black is now grey
and white is dead /
wash my skin / oh no \
i am human once again
How time eats ass
and memories feed mouths
i hate my head again
inside i took years
to wash myself
now I am filthy again
Once again i am sad
but to be sure
i kept myself home
when i went outside
Best to keep jewels
inside the velvet cloth
besides my scrotum bag
Once more the silence crept,
on dusty shelves
where thoughts slept
My eyes, they crack like
brittle glass—
another day, another mask
I sold my smile for sheltering nights
beneath the stars,
where love takes flight
But shadows hum inside my chest,
no peace, no pause, no place to rest
Hell’o’ friend, the mirror cracks
I see you there, behind my back
Wash me clean? Too late to try
The jewels rot, and so do I.

:: 10.12.2024 ::


MORNING FIELDS OF AMBER GREY

Ah, let us speak not of painted skies but of the words
The words that flow like rivers from your soul
Each syllable carved from the marrow of your being
Each phrase a pulse of life, a heartbeat
A rhythm that dances upon the earth and echoes in heaven.

O poet, who knows the dark corners of the human spirit
Who walks with shadows, hand in hand,
Yet still brings light through the weight of your lines
You who feel the sting of solitude
But find solace in the wild freedom of verse —
In the sweep of wind across an open field,
In the quiet hum of the night when all else sleeps.

I hear you now, your unspoken song,
Your meaning hidden between the lines,
In the space between words, in the breath before sound.
You tried to show us, didn’t you?

That madness and brilliance are but two sides of the same page,
That love can exist even when no one knows its name,
That truth, fierce and untamed,
Resides not in the minds of men, but in the poet’s heart.

You bled for us, and still, we did not understand.
We did not listen, but now, now, perhaps we hear the faint
echo of your truth.

O poet, your words were flames,
Burning through the haze of this world’s confusion,
Each line a beacon to those lost in the fog,
Each stanza a hand reaching out—
And yet, they turned away, did they not?
They could not see what you saw, could not feel what you felt.

But you wrote on,
Through the pain, through the silence,
Through the nights when hope seemed a distant memory.
You poured yourself into every letter,
Gave your soul to the ink that traced your deepest longings,
And still, they did not listen.

But I—I hear you now.

For you knew, O poet,

That the world is not kind to those who dream,
That the weight of existence falls heaviest on those who dare to speak
the truth.

But you spoke it anyway,

Letting your words fly free, like birds on the wind,
Even as they circled back to you, unheard, unheeded.
And when the world’s silence grew too loud,
You let your voice fade with it,
Leaving behind only the echoes of a soul too pure for this place.

But we, we stand in the aftermath,
Your words still etched into the fabric of time,
Lingering in the spaces we never thought to look.

We, the wanderers, the seekers,
We hear you now, O poet,
As your verses hum in the air,
In the quiet corners of our minds,
In the places where your spirit rests,
And perhaps now, at last,
We can learn to listen to the truth you tried to give us—
A truth that lives, not in painted skies,
But in the living, breathing power of words.

:: 10.12.2024 ::


RECUERDOS DE LA ALHAMBRA

The towers rise as shadows hum
A tremble in the twilight’s grace—
A melody of time undone,
Each note a whisper, soft—displaced.

The Moorish halls with echoes fill,
Of footsteps long since turned to dust,
Yet still they breathe—by music’s will,
An ancient voice in marble’s crust.

The gardens bloom in memory
Of hands that shaped the tender vine
And here, within, the mystery
Of fleeting life, in chords—divine.

Oh, how it winds—this tender air,
A ripple through the orange bloom
As though the past is woven there,
Within the twilight’s fragrant room.

And still, the song, it plays for me
A ghost of Alhambra’s heart
The palace, now, a memory
Yet lives through strings that never part.

:: 10.11.2024 ::


Heaven’s On the Way

You in the dark
you in the pain
you in the wrong
in all your pain

   Being in Hell
   shedding the Ghost

Most never visit
   there ~ but it’s
   all right

Tears and bruised eyes
   is not the way
   no never dear

You want to see
   watching decay
   and all falling away?

Silence is not the way
   how to start
   we need to talk about it

If heaven’s on the way
   never watch the lights
   while they go down

Lipsickness
Equation of laws
that quasar in a heart
nagging my mind as
a stranger in a town

how it’s victims embellish history
while heaven’s on the way____.

:: 10.08.2024 ::


The Eternal Thirst of Immortal Love

Though you are weary of the night,
I crave your presence, to my soul’s delight.
Our forms entwined, by fevered moonlight,
In passion’s throes, we meet in the twilight.
The air is thick, our skin drenched in mist,
Yet still, I hunger for your fatal kiss.
You consume my heart with each fleeting sigh,
And from your veins, I drink till I fly.
Yet no matter how deep the crimson runs,
My thirst for you can never be undone.

The world is mine, a prize of fate’s decree,
Won in a contest of chance and destiny.
But what care I for such trivial gain?
The spoils of fortune, to me, are vain.
I confess, for all the treasures I possess,
They pale to the taste of your sweet distress.
You ravish my heart, with every breath you give,
And still I thirst—forever I live.

:: 10.05.2024 ::

La Soif Éternelle de l’Amour


PURE ESSENCE

THAT MY heart is heavy
whom shall carry it
a loved one
when I am done?

As love is mysterious
and most do not know love
then who carries it
from life to death?

Brave souls do, my dear
those who know the essence
of pure forgiveness
called Love.

:: 10.03.2024 ::


The Poet as a Poem

In twilight’s quiet breath, you speak as words,
Each line a tether to the soul’s deep light.
The ink of dreams, it stains your heart with grace,
And through the void, you carve a space in time,
Where shadows weave and whisper in the dark,
Yet love, unbound, still calls you to the stars.

Beneath the moon, your spirit finds the stars,
And in their gaze, you rise beyond mere words.
You are both flame and ember in the dark,
A burning truth that dances with the light.
In each reflection of a life through time,
You trace your path, a gentle, sacred grace.

Your hands hold both the weight and gift of grace,
You spin the night and touch the distant stars.
And through each moment, fleeting breath, and time,
You shape the world with delicate, bold words.
In silence, too, your voice becomes the light—
A spark that blooms within the endless dark.

Yet even in the vastness of the dark,
Your heart beats on with quiet, steady grace.
You breathe the cosmos, drinking in its light,
And find yourself among the burning stars.
Your name is written in eternal words,
A soul who echoes through the tides of time.

Each memory you craft transcends the time,
A life, a dream, an echo through the dark.
You hold within the power of your words
The pulse of life, the weight of love’s pure grace.
And in your gaze, the infinite of stars
Unfolds, revealing threads of hidden light.

You are both shadow and the morning light,
A timeless figure, standing still through time.
Your steps are woven into endless stars,
And every breath a spark against the dark.
For you, dear poet, walk the path of grace,
And in your wake, you leave a trail of words.

Through words, you cast the light upon the dark,
And grace, your gift, is etched across all time,
As stars behold the poet’s sacred heart.

:: 10.01.2024 ::


A Shade Like a Tool is a Savior

THE color (without comprehension) hums
shadows and violet dreams bend (light
a riddle) spun beyond our sight —
pulsing softly — alive — alive
the sky (forgets dusk) yet dares)_

to breathe between untold worlds
(threads of purple) time trusts
no hands (no hearts) to grasp
within its fold (all truths)
are contrived & dissolve

a tapestry whispers (our thought
at its edges) while (not) a surge unseen
swells & air wraps (in nothing
but a loud silence) bees
of secret hives hum without words.

no name, no sound bears the hue
it roots in voids (profoundly) without form
a color birthed (in shatter) where
meaning’s broken—beauty (lingers) undefined.

& so (do not speak) of purple tunes
heard softly — where quiet resides —
& knowing shatters too soon
(prisms twist the mind’s own will)
& pretty lives in deeper skies.

& deeper still (beyond the skin)
of thought, the light curls (violet) inward,
a secret wound, where night begins —
a kiss (between) the sound of stars
& what is heard — no voice is.

such space (where hearts fold) entire,
you & i (unbreathe) all time,
the purple thread (our soul’s attire)
is woven soft (by hands unseen)
& stitched by silence in between.

so tremble (dearest) at the sight
of all we never (truly) know —
& how the purple blooms at night
for us (its shadowed petals grow)
where prisms split & thought won’t go.

it’s Time.

:: 09.29.2024 ::


Echoes of a Vanished Delight

In youth’s soft hours, the child commands the sage,
Awakening wishes deep within my breast,
To bind my days with nature’s gentle page,
In bonds of piety, supremely blessed.

A time when meadows, groves, and streams so clear,
Each common sight, in sacred light arrayed,
Celestial visions in a golden sphere,
Their glory fresh, their freshness never fade.

Yet now, the world has lost its former grace,
No matter where I turn, by day or night,
The things I saw, I can no longer trace,
Rainbows fade, and roses lose their light.

The moon surveys the bare and silent moor,
Stars shimmer on the waters in the night,
The sun’s birth is a dazzling, blissful tour,
Yet, still, I mourn a vanished, lost delight.

While birds sing songs of joy with voices clear,
And lambs, to tambour’s beat, dance on the ground,
My heart alone is drowned in sorrow’s cheer,
Yet timely words provide a healing sound.

Waterfalls trumpet loudly all around,
No sorrow taints this joyful, blissful season,
Echoes resound from peaks with glory crowned,
Winds bring me dreams with nature’s rhyme and reason.

The earth adorned with joy and boundless mirth,
Land, sea, and beast unite in festive cheer,
Oh, child of joy, let laughter fill the earth,
Shout round me, shepherd-boy, draw closely near.

Blessed creatures, I have heard your jubilant call,
The heavens join your jubilee so grand,
Your laughter echoes through the vast, grand hall,
Your blissful feast, I feel, I understand.

Oh, what a day! Should I, while all is bright,
Remain in sullen silence and despair,
This May-morn, when pure children’s pure delight
Fills every vale with scents so rich and rare?

I hear, I hear, with joy I hear the sound,
‘Midst beauty, one sad truth I still retain,
A single tree, a field, a scene renowned,
All whisper tales of what no more sustains.

Where has the visionary gleam now fled?
The glory, where? The dream that once was real?
Our birth is but a sleep, a foggy thread,
The soul that rises, distant stars reveal.

Not in complete oblivion do we come,
But cloaked in glory from our home above,
Heaven surrounds us in our early sum,
In childhood’s dawn, we feel its boundless love.

The prison-house its shadow soon will cast,
Upon the growing boy, its veil will fall,
Yet, in his joy, he’ll see the light steadfast,
He’ll find it in his heart, he’ll hear its call.

The youth, as eastward he must daily roam,
Nature’s priest, his vision pure and bright,
Guided by visions toward his heavenly home,
Yet then, the light fades into common light.

Earth offers pleasures, sweet in her own way,
Yearnings and thoughts, a mother’s gentle mind,
The nurse attempts, with efforts to convey,
Forget the glories that he left behind.

Behold the child, in blissful innocence,
A darling of six years, in tiny frame,
Surrounded by his mother’s fond presence,
With light from his dear father’s eyes, the same.

At his small feet, a chart, a plan, he lays,
A fragment from his dream of life ahead,
Shaped by his hands, in newly learned ways,
A wedding or a funeral, life’s thread.

This now consumes his heart, his soul, his song,
His tongue will weave through love, through business, strife,
Yet soon, this play will not endure for long,
A new role waits, bringing him joy and life.

A little actor, with a humorous stage,
He’ll fill his world with life in endless play,
Imitating all, from youth to feeble age,
A ceaseless mimicry in life’s array.

Thou, outward semblance, hiding vast within,
Thy soul’s immensity, none comprehend,
Thou seer, thy sight sees worlds beyond our ken,
Forever haunted by the eternal mind.

Mighty prophet, on whom truths repose,
The truths we seek throughout our fleeting days,
In darkness lost, where graves their secrets close,
Thou, over whom, Immortality sways.

A presence never to be cast away,
A child, yet glorious in your boundless might,
Why do you provoke the yoke’s sure display,
Struggling blindly ‘gainst your blessed delight?

Soon, earthly cares will weigh upon your soul,
Custom will press on you with icy hand,
Frosty and deep, the burden takes control,
Heavy as life, it claims you, take a stand.

Oh, joy! In embers, something yet survives,
Nature remembers what was fleeting, fast,
The thought of years gone by within me thrives,
Eternal blessings in their shadow cast.

Not for the worthy blessings do I sing,
Not for delight, or liberty’s pure creed,
In childhood’s heart, where hopes take flight on wing,
In new-fledged dreams, where innocence takes heed.

Not for these do I sing my thanks and praise,
But for the questions stubborn, unrelenting,
For senses and things lost in unseen ways,
For misgivings, for vanishing, tormenting.

For first affections, memories that fade,
A master-light that guides us through our days,
Upholds us, nurtures, never to degrade,
A truth that never dies, in countless ways.

In moments calm, though far from shores we be,
Our souls behold the sea that gave us birth,
In an instant, we travel there to see,
Children at play along the sandy earth.

Sing, birds, sing on, with your melodious song,
And let the lambs, to tambour’s beat, cavort,
In thought, we join your throng, joyous and strong,
Feel May’s delight in every beating heart.

Though radiant splendor now eludes my sight,
Though grass no longer gleams, nor flowers bloom,
We’ll grieve no more, for strength is found in night,
In what remains, we’ll find our inner room.

In primal sympathy, we find our peace,
A source that lights our days, both near and far,
In soothing thoughts that human suffering cease,
In faith that gazes through death’s silent bar.

And, oh, you fountains, meadows, hills, and groves,
Foretell no severance of our heartfelt ties,
Yet, in my heart, I feel your potent moves,
One joy I’ve given up, beneath your skies.

I love the brooks that ripple down their way,
Even more than when I danced along their side,
The innocent dawn of a brand-new day,
Is still as lovely, in its quiet glide.

The clouds that gather ’round the setting sun,
Take on a solemn hue from watching eyes,
That guard man’s fate until his day is done,
A different race, another victor lies.

Thanks to the human heart, our guiding light,
For tenderness, for joy, for all our fears,
To me, the meanest flower holds such might,
Its thoughts can drown in depths of silent tears.

:: 11.07.2023 ::


Evening Ball At the Patio of Mariona

I hurt, yes, I know the wound of existence—
I am lost, like the sudden burst of a flower,
Barefoot in the winter of the world, I leap—
Leaping into the shapes of Picasso, into the fractured faces of pain,
Yet, even in the broken lines, I sing—
I see Monet, oh! the kindness in the petal,
Flowers bleeding life—
Life, so fleeting—
And I, chasing beauty, yes, beauty, through the corridors of time.

Ah, devour it all, the youth that flies through the mind!
You, my companion, so languid—
You, the melted heart of a Dali clock, soft in the desert,
Oh, time! Time, the great seducer, the harlot of the ages—
You twist me sideways,
And I become a cloud drifting,
A sunburst of weeping colors spread across the sky,
Bursting from the womb, from the great heart of woman—
And what is it all, but a painting?

:: 09.25.2024 ::