ATE my heart in a hearth
beneath a mound of dirt

I spent my days
drinking wine

Miss the love
whose hair was
like flowers as you

I’m the one who wants
to be with you

I’m the one who wants
to love you for you

Let all be reveal

Do you feel it?
To feel it. So strong.
Enough ~~ we took enough

pain, like life

My love we’re young
even so I think of you
i’ve learned alot
really knew love hurts

Now sailing seas
going away ~~

:: 03172024 ::

TONIGHT the storm’s fierce lightning

T H O U G H T — S T R U CK!

and split a tree!

That beauty –: deformed by love____

— nature that kills what it loves

Between branches of passion-time

haunted by ill angels only

Perched upon a dark throne, sits proudly

I have reached these lands \
newly From an ultimate dim Thule

Through winding paths and forest deep,
Where dreams and whispers softly creep,
I wander forth with heart aglow,
In search of truths that nature sows.

:: 06-12-2014 ::

MOTHER loved me, she
said, “stay home
after school
I’ve got to work
so be careful dear.”

Mother, I worry
you tend a bar
and men are hungry

The days were wicked.
back in that day ~
Sometimes 24 and times
48 hours later.

I’d go to school with a stomach
full of holes wondering how
she is — mama! I didn’t see you
and i’m so scared!

Learning algebra wasn’t so interesting
but English caught my attention

One night she had a party
with men and it went on for days
and days partying they did

Until I heard her screaming
I ran into her room and saw
two men raping her ~~ I tried
but I was a small boy

Boy!  I’ll kill you! said one man.
The other took mama and made her cry
so hard.  I passed out in the hallway
of a cheap trailer.  

Oh, this world.  So cruel.  
Oh, this world.  So cruel.

:: 03.17.2024 ::

In places I’ve never explored, gladly beyond
any known experience, your eyes speak quietly:
Even in your smallest gestures, there’s something
that envelops me, or eludes my touch because it’s too close.

Your slightest glance effortlessly unlocks me,
Though I’ve closed myself off like a tight fist,
You unfurl me like Spring unfurls
Its first rose, with a touch that’s skilled and mysterious.

And if you wish to close me, then I,
And my life, will shut beautifully, suddenly,
Like when a flower’s heart imagines
The snow falling meticulously, everywhere.

Nothing we perceive in this world compares
to the power of your intense vulnerability: whose texture
compels me with the colors of far-off lands,
bringing death and eternity with every breath.

(I don’t know what it is about you that opens
and closes; only something in me understands
that the voice of your eyes is deeper than any rose)
No one, not even the rain, has hands so small.

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