As I LaY MYSeLF TO SLeeP I PRAY THE LORD MYSeLF TO KeeP

AS I LAY MYSELF TO SLEEP
I PRAY THE LORD MYSELF TO KEEP

go to sleep little one
go to hell where there’s no prayers
go to heaven where no one hears you

Exit –> life
ENTER –> eternity
(we walk alone)

I TUCKED YOU INTO SOFT ETERNAL SLEEP

be in the never-never land
be in a dream so deep
be – come a shadow of yourself
(i walk alone)

ESCAPE –> self
ENTER –> recycle

One eye open
One eye closed
One night fades, forgotten, decomposed
(my shadow my only friend)

go to sleep little one
go to the place where time dissolves
go to the silence where all resolves

EXIT –> fear
ENTER –> forever
(love always beside me)

:: 09.19.2024 ::


A HUNDRED POEMS – LXXXVI

MY LETTER TO YOU

Dear, speak not of the storm that weeps in feelings deep,
The butterfly endures the deluge, the fire’s keep.
What flower doth bloom in dreams, serene,

life burns a fire in souls
never forgiving good deeds

In visions, still, where worlds convene
A burning bush, its flames, they soothe,
Embracing souls, in passion’s truth

seeking for a heart of gold
and we’re getting old

I dined upon your essence, pure,
Touched the soul, a love so sure
In ships of dreams, I sailed the night,

how i’ve sailed the ocean
been to hollywood
and now getting old

Fell into love’s soft, endless light
You, my golden molten grace,
In your love, I find my place

lived in Jean Lafitte’s house in the 70s
and walked the wood he lived
a house now burned down

Time’s eternal clock winds not astray,
I’m yours, in love’s unending sway.
Once upon time’s delicate thread I soared,

Through space, my wishes, like stardust, poured.
Wayward, I carried dreams in flight,
Masked wisdom, veiled in the night.

In the cacophony of life’s design,
I became words, where voices entwine.
Those who loathed what I conveyed,

I devoured, their echoes frayed.
In the tapestry of spoken song,
I found my voice, where I belong.

:: /\ ::


THE EDGE OF INFINITY

WHEN i took my Soul
into the ocean
i left insanity ashore

low winds when i took
the watch — gentle breathing
filled my empty sails

and i know one thing:

it’s where i want be

I closed my eyes
for a jab sailor
filled my lungs to sing

The ship moved off shore
pointing true north
Awake at last lover

and i rest inside myself
with no super answers

Water moving with rudder
and within my ears
it sounded so strange

Who deserves love
an ocean breathing
smelling like love

mistral wind

I always moved with winds
and carried dreams
to the deepest oceans

as if the sky should tear
and show a deeper blue
and that a futher stretch
but a supposing too
of worlds beyond the veil

Untouched by stars or air
themselves the edge of space
unseen — infinity is there.

:: 09.18.2024 ::


A Morning Delightful

Awake! My eyes—
opened to you, casting off sleep,
to find heaven nestled beside me.
Oh, what grace, what gentle skin!
An angel’s presence in soft repose.

I never dreamed to witness
what my mind dared not conceive,
yet here you are—so real,
with lips still kissed by slumber’s breath.

I am smaller now, a speck,
before the vastness of your beauty.
Surely, I fell through a rift in heaven’s sky
to land here,
where you sleep, where you snore,
so perfectly angelic.

:: 09.17.2024 ::


Time and Love Remains A Romantic Reflection

If I love, what am I, but shadow and flame,
A mirror that flickers, that calls my name?
Does love remake me, or unveil what’s been,
The light that’s hidden, or the darkness within?

In the soil, I kneel, where thorns entwine,
The earth beneath me, both cruel and divine.
I crawl through the dirt, stained by the fight,
Yet still I rise toward love’s steady light.

What is real, must I remember it all—
The good, the evil, the rise, and the fall?
To uncover truth is to bear its weight,
The joy and the sorrow that time won’t abate.

The hands that I’ve helped, the wounds I have known,
The shadows of others have marked my own.
For every soul that gave, and each that took,
I am both victim and thief in this book.

Pulling at thorns, the pain won’t release,
Love persists, though suffering won’t cease.
Perhaps I am someone else—someone changed,
Yet you, like the sky, remain unrestrained.

In the light and shadows of those I recall,
I gave them everything, but lost it all.
And still, I seek redemption, not in the past,
But in the love that endures, that might last.

So, I’ll love all, in spite of the pain,
For in love’s embrace, I’ll find myself again.
Through the struggle, the shadows, the wounds, the fall,
I’ll rise, like the dawn, and love will remain through all.

:: 09.17.2024 ::


The Library of Life

When eyes awake, where do they rest?
Upon what bed of sky?
Do souls retreat where flames have swept,
Or wings of Ashes, fly?

I met a heart — a hollow deep
And fell within her Sea
A Woman who wore novels plain,
Like Poetry set free.

Where shall the tender hearted go
When Shadows press the Light?
I saw her weep a tear aflame
Through mist of Smoky Night.

A Lady from the distant Shelf
Of Records kept, unseen
I read but one and knew them all
The Volumes in between.

Where do we go when curtains fall
To Life’s own Library
Where Heaven’s Books contain the World
Not Flames but Memory.

:: 09.15.2024 ::


HIGH-WIRE ARTIST

The heartbeat’s too faint—
I tried to skip
down the boardwalk path,

the corner of my carnival eye glossed,
where pinks and reds
bled into blue,
and a thin blade of sadness
sliced through the ocean waves

I saw you drowning
in your carnival suit of cheap life.
Did you hear me call?
I shouted, “One more smile for life!”
But the pudding seas swallowed you whole

Now I walk the high-wire,
this tightrope called falling life,
teetering between the sky
and the abyss below

I felt the wind breathe
its quiet warning,
as the rope trembled beneath my feet,
each step a gamble
against the pull of gravity—
yet the crowd cheers for the fall

The sky grows dim;
night becomes my silent audience.
With each sway, I wonder—
is it courage that keeps me walking,
or the fear of what waits
below the safety net?

:: 09.14.2024 ::


THE PHANTOM STRINGS


I’ve none to tether me to Earth,
No thread of pain, no weight of birth,
Once bound by threads, but now unspun—
I dance within the shadowed sun.

Hi-ho, the grave doth sing,
A solemn hymn, a somber ring,
The world shall know my spectral glee,
For naught can ever burden me.

No strings—so free, I drift alone,
No lover’s grasp, no heart of stone.
They writhe with chains that bind the soul,
But I am ghostly, dark, and whole.

Your arms, they yearn—but free they be,
To touch me near the hollowed sea.
Ah, yes, should you pursue my shade,
I’d snap my bonds in twilight’s blade.

No strings to break, yet still I’d sever,
My fate entwined with Death—forever.
Between us whispers fade to dust—
For you, I’d cut the ropes of trust.

Upon the Volga’s winding sweep,
Where shadows coil and secrets creep,
I’ve met with Ivan’s mournful cry—
But to your side, I’d rather die.

No strings remain, I drift unseen,
A soul unmoored, a wraith serene.

“I’ve got no strings to hold me down
To make me fret, or make me frown
I had strings, but now I’m free
There are no strings on me…”

:: 09.13.2024 ::


THE HOURGLASS VOMITS DREAMS

I born.
mouth full of dirt,
crowned with worms,
called ugly
by a sky that bleeds clocks.
I begged the wind for mercy,
for the crime of breathing,
and love—love hid itself
beneath the rotting leaves.

KEEP YOUR DREAMS HIDDEN
(never
spill them)
like marbles
into the hands of ghosts—
their fingers rot,
their eyes burn holes
through time itself.

and the ears,
dry as desert bones,
curl inward
like paper shriveling in fire.

the tongues twist into serpents
and vomit
not words, but sand—
millions of grains
in an hourglass that spins,
spiraling faster, faster,
dissolving the moon’s reflection.

time is not a thief.
it is a snake devouring itself,
until the night becomes a shadow’s shadow,
bleeding stars.
aborted dreams
are all that’s left,
tangled in the sky’s black veins.


The Imperial Robe

I see the Night – lit up by Day
Some name it Life – I say – Okay
The World – she wears a starry Cloak
Upon her Collar – Time’s soft yoke

A Seamstress – stitched with subtle Thread
Where Life – and Death – together tread
And in her Garb – from Waist to Knee
Lies all we are – and all shall be

Between the Land – and Ocean wide
Between the Dream – where Shadows bide
Between the Life – and Death’s deep Breath
We dwell – within the Robe of Death!

:: 04.28.2015 ::