Evening Ball At the Patio of Mariona

I hurt, yes, I know the wound of existence—
I am lost, like the sudden burst of a flower,
Barefoot in the winter of the world, I leap—
Leaping into the shapes of Picasso, into the fractured faces of pain,
Yet, even in the broken lines, I sing—
I see Monet, oh! the kindness in the petal,
Flowers bleeding life—
Life, so fleeting—
And I, chasing beauty, yes, beauty, through the corridors of time.

Ah, devour it all, the youth that flies through the mind!
You, my companion, so languid—
You, the melted heart of a Dali clock, soft in the desert,
Oh, time! Time, the great seducer, the harlot of the ages—
You twist me sideways,
And I become a cloud drifting,
A sunburst of weeping colors spread across the sky,
Bursting from the womb, from the great heart of woman—
And what is it all, but a painting?

:: 09.25.2024 ::


ENTRY — May 10th, 2016

There was no Fever like it, felt
Nor Madness, worn in such a Guilt
A Mind that wandered — Body stilled
Where I, in shadowed dwelling, willed
To touch dimensions higher.

Where once, in Spaces, faint — obscure
I traced her Form, a Shape unsure
To find where Love had left its Thread,
Unraveled in the Heart’s own bed,
Where Passion lay — entire.

Her Lips, like Petals — velvet, soft
Did steal my Breath, did lift me oft
And where my Skin, like Summer’s musk,
Did burn in heat, a Dusk to Dusk
Our Minds — a Fusion higher.

Though Flesh met Flesh — in Memory’s eye,
Her Thighs, like Echoes, rise and fly
Each Stroke — from Thought, a Lover’s Will
To meet her there, in Silence still
Where Love outlives — Desire.

And Love, it conquers all but Death
It whispers through a living Breath
For Life, it bends, in Time’s long Knife,
Yet Love, it stays surpassing Life,
A Flame that need expire.

:: 09.25.2024 ::


Eros Do Not Flee From Me (Final)


My adventure began on this chilling night,
As homes lowered shades, extinguishing light.
While sullen souls lay down to sleep and dream,
Common sense whispered, “Follow, don’t esteem.”
But my heart stood firm, undeterred by fright!

Conviction, that solid and shiny guide,
Melted pale and fearsome, colors denied.
My plan was simple, in the dark I’d tread,
To find EROS’ house, where hearts are fed,
And cure my heart’s ailment, its blight implied.

After Chaos, Gaia, and Tartarus’ reign,
EROS, the God of Love, was then ordained.
He would show the path to enduring love,
To be my rightful bride, below, above.
Restless, I fled to the frozen hills, pain.

As a mortal, I sped with golden wings,
Like EROS, beating tempestuous strings.
A burden heavy, knowing fate’s decree,
My beast through mist and soaring heights carried me,
Across wastelands and icy bog’s stings.

Sad waters sang their melancholic rhyme,
“CHAOS…” echoed, marking my journey’s prime.
Humanity seemed newborn in my sight,
Through woods and hills, surging forth in my might.
Pity EROS, his bride born of dark grime.

A chasm nameless, yet a burning flame,
Illuminated by Luna’s solemn aim.
The dance of light upon the night’s embrace,
Stirred feelings deep within my soul’s dark space.
Soothing my beast, fear’s burden I declaim.

Into the gaping chasm’s twisted soil,
I faced my fate, stepping with care and toil.
Each footstep soaked within my trembling soul,
Fear’s grip upon my throat, fierce and whole.
Like EROS, love consumed, fear would foil.

My fevered mind, a raging river’s flow,
Slowly seeped into the porous night’s woe.
A creature ravenous, hungry for more,
Blood and bite, I sought on this fateful shore.
Decision awaited at that ancient door.

With a hand, cold and gray, I knocked, confessed,
My longing seconds felt like hours, oppressed.
The sane might judge the foolishness I showed,
But love’s need surpasses all folly, bestowed.
To those with empty lives, love manifests.

This night, my plan held naught but a desire,
To find EROS’ house, the god I admire.
After Chaos, Gaia, and Tartarus’ birth,
I sought my ambition, for love’s true worth.
Feeble fear fled, consumed by passion’s fire.

Into the frozen hills, I swiftly fled,
A mortal like EROS, where tempests tread.
With golden wings, I beat upon the night,
Knowing my fate, senses jarred by its might.
Through cold waters, sad and gray, I sped.

My eyes, veiled slightly by a cloth’s embrace,
Luna’s light burned, revealing truth and grace.
Humanity, awakened by this sight,
As EROS mated with DARK CHAOS, bright.
Their wings entwined, birthing the human race.

Amidst smoke and mire, Apophis did sit,
The thief who stole love, causing endless grit.
He took away the love meant for my soul,
Leaving emptiness, a gaping hole.
EROS, please heed, your aid I desperately solicit!

As the winds of time howled through ancient stone,
I stood at the threshold, weary and alone.
A voice emerged, deep as the world’s own core,
“EROS shall grant you what you most implore.”
My trembling heart swelled, no longer unknown.

With burning wings, EROS appeared in flight,
His eyes like stars piercing the endless night.
He spoke not of passion, nor fleeting embrace,
But of love’s true form—beyond time and space.
“The path you seek,” he said, “is born of light.”

Through Chaos, through Darkness, love stands supreme,
Not bound by whims or the fragile dream.
It carves through the void, through sorrow and strife,
Binding lost souls, shaping the world to life.
In its embrace, you become what you seem.”

Then from my chest, my heart began to blaze,
No longer seeking, trapped in longing’s haze.
The skies split open, revealing the dawn,
And in love’s full grasp, I was reborn.
Fear dissolved into time’s eternal gaze.

EROS turned to leave, his wings full of fire,
But before he vanished, spoke of my desire:
“Seek not my house, for you need only see—
That love is not found—it lives within thee.”
And with that truth, I soared ever higher.

r(r) 11.23.2023


O’MORNING

O morning, freshly unfurled, like the dawn of creation,
Bursting with light, as the first moment of being!

The blackbird lifts its voice, primal, triumphant,
A song born from the soil, from the earth’s deep belly.

Sing praises! Sing to the light that climbs from the east,
To the day that emerges, innocent, from the bosom of the world!

Sweet the rains that fall, caressing, tender—
Each drop, a baptism for the earth’s green skin,
Each blade of grass kissed by Heaven’s breath,
The dew a glittering gift, on the fresh face of life.
Praise! Praise the sweetness of the garden,
Sprung up whole, where feet of wonder once trod,
Where the Eternal walks still, in quiet reverence.

Mine is the light, mine the glow of the morning!
I, too, am born with the day, sibling to the sun,
Witness to the glory that Eden knew in its first bloom,
Praise! Praise every breath, every heartbeat, every moment,
For in them, the new day unfolds, God’s hand shaping the world anew!

O morning, breaking as once it broke—
The blackbird sings, unchained, unafraid!
Praise for the song, praise for the dawn!

Praise for the world, springing up, forever fresh, forever young!
God’s Creation for the new day.

:: 09.24.2024 ::


By Love’s Design

Joy — Thou Spark of Heav’n’s delight
Born of some Eternal Place
We, alight — with fevered Heart

Seek Thy Everlasting Grace!
Thy Hand doth mend where we divide
The fractured souls — by custom spurned
And Men — like Brothers side by side
Beneath Thy Wings have returned.

He who dares the noble quest
To bind a Friend within his care
Or finds the Heart of Woman blest
Let him in thy Rapture share!
And though one Heart may claim but One
He joins — the grand Jubilant Line
Yet those who’ve wandered all alone
Shall mourn outside Love’s Design.

Creation drinks from Joy’s pure breast!
And good and ill upon her trail
All kiss the Vine by Heaven blessed
For Friend and Love shall never fail.

The worm within his quiet hole
Finds Bliss beneath the clod
And even Angels fold their wings
In Joy — before their God!

Gladly like the Suns that sweep
Through Heav’n’s vast and noble Plan
March, my Brethren, hand in hand
In Joy — like Heroes — stand!

:: 09.24.2024 ::


ABRACADABRANTESQUEL

HOW sorrowful my eyes weep
as mortal weeping tears
My breathe, my lungs covered
within filthy pain!

They shower it with jets of savory soup,
As my heart, eyes, and body leaks
beneath the truth of my soul __

Engulfed in laughter, watch them mock,
My sorrowed heart breaks at the stern,
My heart wrapped in a filthy smock!
Lewd and crude, their taunts resound,
They’ve defiled it in every form!

On the helm, their monsters abound,
Lewd and crude, their taunts resound.

This Mind, abracadabrantesque!,

Take my heart, let it be swept clean!
Vulgar and vile, their taunts persist,
They’ve defiled it in ways unseen!
When their gnawing comes to an end,
What shall we do, O stolen heart?
Then drunken stammers from vile friends:
When their gnawing comes to an end:
My soul will wrench, those wretched fiends,
If my heart is wholly consumed:
When their gnawing comes to an end,
What shall we do, O stolen heart?

:: 09.23.2024 ::


/AS WITH NICOLAUS COPERNICUS\



My neck has stretched above the clouds
the Adamic Apple tickling stars —

and my Love is here and there upon
every footstep i have walked.

Life is not just Pain.
Nor just Love.
But fear and Joy
Morbidity and a shade of nudeness

IF the Soul is inclined to explore
God’s backyard; No cowards! Most of us!

To shade your shame within religion

or a sense of higher ground for weak
voices. Shame. Shame upon the lot!
The Sun is brilliant.
and still your mystery!

:: 04-03-2019 :


dEVASTATION Blues

Oh, devastation, you’re a wrecking sight,
Tear me down, I’m high all night.
With your crooked smile, got me in a trance,
You drag me deeper in this twisted dance.

Your eyes, like scars, they burn so bright,
Reflecting my pain, and it feels so right.
Time’s a blur when you’re around,
Everything’s spinning, I’m lost, I’m bound.

Yeah, love, sweet love, how it kills me slow,
Like fire and rain, I just let it grow.

Devastating love, it’s what I crave,
A love that drags me right to my grave.
So burn me down, darling, with all that you are,
And we’ll crash together, never too far.

:: 08.12.2024 ::


Ode to The Infinite Sky

Behold, the heavens blaze in light,
A symphony of stars unite,
From distant realms where spirits fly,
Their voices lift, the world awry.

O Joy, thou radiant flame divine,
Unfurl thy wings, O spark benign!
In every heart, a beacon gleams,
In every soul, a thousand dreams.

O boundless sky, eternal sea,
Thy waves of joy enfold the free.
In harmony, all nations rise,
Together reach the boundless skies!

We sing as one, the hymn of man,
No walls, no chains, no borders can
Divide us from the light we chase,
The glory of the human race.

Thou art the thread in time’s great loom,
The stars, they dance, dispel all gloom.
O Joy, thy power makes us whole,
Unites the world, each living soul.

From dust to stars, we dare to climb,
We conquer both the earth and time.
In Joy, we find our strength reborn,
A dawn that breaks the endless morn.

O brothers, sisters, raise your voice,
In boundless Joy, we shall rejoice!
Through every storm, through every fight,
O Joy, thy song brings forth the light.

:: 09.20.2024 ::


As I LaY MYSeLF TO SLeeP I PRAY THE LORD MYSeLF TO KeeP

AS I LAY MYSELF TO SLEEP
I PRAY THE LORD MYSELF TO KEEP

go to sleep little one
go to hell where there’s no prayers
go to heaven where no one hears you

Exit –> life
ENTER –> eternity
(we walk alone)

I TUCKED YOU INTO SOFT ETERNAL SLEEP

be in the never-never land
be in a dream so deep
be – come a shadow of yourself
(i walk alone)

ESCAPE –> self
ENTER –> recycle

One eye open
One eye closed
One night fades, forgotten, decomposed
(my shadow my only friend)

go to sleep little one
go to the place where time dissolves
go to the silence where all resolves

EXIT –> fear
ENTER –> forever
(love always beside me)

:: 09.19.2024 ::