Monthly Archives: October 2021

A HUNDRED POEMS – LXXIX

OH! Such fair weather and what storm-burst hearts!
When caressing heat-touch’d brilliant morning’s sun Each light drench-steep’d young child.
warring showers within the beautiful sorrows!

On a blue sky mourning my bruised heart singing
songs-blue jay melodies in meadows kissing me.

To gather the wood as we build a new nest
for our eggs and young birds. Sweet arranged new sun and sonnet new formed day.
All for love and hearts.
My beautiful love.  My blue feathered bird.
:: –  ::


A HUNDRED POEMS – LXXIX

OH! Such fair weather and what storm-burst hearts!
When caressing heat-touch’d brilliant morning’s sun each light drench-steep’d
warring showers within the beautiful sorrows!

On a blue sky mourning my bruised heart singing
songs-blue jay melodies in meadows kissing me.

To gather the wood as we build a new nest
for our eggs and young birds.
Sweet arranged new sun and sonnet new form day.
All for love and hearts.
:: 1019.2021 ::


ANDRE BRETON is VERY DEAD BUT NOT SURREALISM

THE PRECIOUS terror is realizing most adults are dead children or like a day that folds itself into a basket of reborn night.

That long-necked geese and stiff necks are either pretending giraffes or self consumed souls; ignoring the mirror reflecting thoughts, introspection devours its own mouth.

Surrealism is hickey upon my heart that bests freezer burn sunlight any now. Kiss me you brilliant stupid fool.

:: 08-30-2018 ::


HOW LOVE DIES

WISH my heart soft Libra
i was rotting inside a cedar box
riding reaching North Star
— hey.  Oh.  Wait.  I screamed
i was forever hating the thick-backed
men raping my love.
OH angel fell; bellicose /tears\
lose my hate:  whatever.  I forgot
my childhood and became what i am.
Forever wounded.

raped mother.

I was locked inside my MOUTH-moth
maggot  lips eating cancer breath.
  Hey!  How we live.  How we die.
forgiving memories that melt life.
Your fire.  Inside my heart.

:: 10.19.2021 ::


THE POETIC APE

The ape didn’t like this idea. He tossed the pencil from hand to hand, because he didn’t think it was safe.

‘I’ll write nothing, I don’t care,’ he said.

‘For the first time in my life, I don’t care.’

But the doctor didn’t want the ape to fool him.

He threatened to show the whole world that the ape wasn’t a god, unless the ape wrote a poem.

So the ape started out, crumpling the paper, wiping away the blue ink as it trickled from the pen.

‘Don’t wipe it away,’ Dr. Bluespire said.

‘You’re only supposed to write something good.’

But the ape was too afraid.

He even made a few crumbs fall on the floor.

‘If you try to run away,’ said Dr. Bluespire,

‘I’ll send you to a psychiatrist.

And I’ll teach you how to write a poem.’

So the ape started again, crumpling the paper and sliding it across the table.

‘You’re not supposed to make the paper crinkle,’ said Dr. Bluespire.

‘It’s bad manners.’

But the ape was nervous.

He closed his eyes, and tried to picture what he thought a poem should be.

‘I can’t come up with a good one,’ he said.

‘It doesn’t matter,’ said the doctor.

‘You have to start somewhere.’

So the ape tried again.

He crumpled the paper and didn’t wipe it away.

This time the doctor asked him what he was doing.

‘I’m getting it ready,’ the ape said.

‘That’s all I can do.’

Then Dr. Bluespire helped him get his hands ready for the pen.

‘Do you think the pen’s slippery?’ he said.

‘Well, I don’t know,’ said the ape.

‘But that’s what you’re supposed to do. Write something bad, so you’ll know how to write a good one.’

Then the doctor told the ape to start.

‘Open your eyes!’ he said.

‘Make sure the words flow out.

The ape wrote: “Could they be wrong about ‘god’ and the stories?”

:: 10.19.2021 ::


ARCHIE AND ROGER

This Picture when fax machine transmission says of Jesse — “He’s part animal, part human and one long from another — three terrible qualities
that dance around beneath his exquisitely high-flown surface. Nobody should feel obliged to look away. He inspires.” Other BS Text Messages to
Pam Stevens ‘Helpless For Love. Such mean people live all alone. Cried all the way home’ (page 24) Carol Klewer has launched “The Daily Scream,”
a photographic account of an unexpected journey that sometimes proceeds and sometimes retreats through time. These 100 shots mark her trip back
to Bucharest, Romania. “The mother scamp” began by hearing voices one early morning at 2:00 AM…both the dilation and dilation machines that
actually produce a slight amount of leaking tears. My walking too fast through mixed film pages within the moving world, recently first discovered
while updating Beth Klein ‘Crossdresser Toolkit BSA (Book: pg 110-115, Forgiving Hearts, EPROBLES).

here.” Video: Someone is breaking the doll catalog photo sets. Buy fresh bottles of supermarket applesauce and string cheap greeting cards with faux
small-talk snowmen or rag dolls into doll hair bows. ‘Posture enhancers are lots to be done, too. Put them up in the right or left “bow’ too when
you’re feeling grumpy. Haus, Hauser and Hauser have tons of slashes along solid serifed pages, bottom small drawings instead of pictures, about what
comes out from under matress frames, too. Even they’re trying to get just a doll being held in large vermilion doodling while wishing he was iced.

“Happy Biting Pains by Ott or May’, the Skelkers say while relishing nail ‘drawings by Archie and Roger’.

:: 10.19.2021 ::


WE AWAKE AND SLEEP AND GROW

WHEN I AWAKE i find all my dreams were awake
she sleeps and my days are mysterious
And within my mirror i cry for no one

She awakes and dreams of days of love
and within her eyes there’s nothing
crying for no one — she says home

You go out and work for food.

The day breaks into evening and when
you come home the tears are for no one.
She cries and you weep silently.

We wake up and we make up.

Finding Love that grows stronger
as we realize we love each other
and need each other to grow in life.

:: 10.19.2021 ::


UNTITLED

IN satin and lace, as amiable as you are proud, wise, generous, and innocent.

You were buried next to her by an agent of the U.S. Department of Agriculture, who scanned your father’s farm corned beef with all the trimmings, may God rest her forsaken soul, for it is all of us.  

She forsook; and I shall never forget her sputtering embers, and then the little mound.

Yes, my little rum runners, she had defective tear ducts and could weep only iced tea.

She had petticoats beneath her eyelids. And in her last years she found ball bearings in her beehive puddings, she swore allegiance to Abyssinia. What should I have done?

I played the piano and scrambled eggs.

I had to navigate carefully around her brain’s avalanche lest even a decent finale be forfeited.

And her beauty is still evermore. You see, as she was dying, I led each of you to her side, one by one she scorched you with her radiance.

And she is ever with us in our acetylene leisure.

But you are beautiful, and I, a slave to a heap of cinders.

The Dream Police.

:: 10.19.2021 ::


MOWING LIES

We must meet in a toast you gave to me that other morning in the wood where the boughs of the woodlot are ragged and snagged with ice.

When you were gone I filled a glass with water and put the sunflower seeds in it and made this toast to you.

And then I wiped the water off of my cheek and put the sunflower seeds in a pile on the counter, and put the water in the sink.

When you came back that afternoon I told you that you should stick your fist out of the car window to prove that you were alive.

I wondered if you heard.

We must mow a grass lot of lies through, we will be mowing that grass lot a grass lot, lying.

It will be grass, lying on a hay, who at the base of that hay, dead in all her glory of flying away.

There will be broken pictures left where they fall, so many broken pictures that they fall to one side and miss the pictures they meet and forget about those they lose.

And then we will be mowing that grass lot a grass lot, lying.

:: 10.19.2021 ::


LIFE’S PUZZLE

I chanced upon an exquisite puzzle one day

It was TINY in size and easy to touch

I did not want to figure it out
but just to hold…

\I turned it this way, that way
— any way it would move! /

And at times interlocking pieces
would come and go.

Eventually I closed my eyes
and relied on touch and faith
and found it much easier to navigate
Life is such, that way.

simplicity.