Tojani! Even this is an act of fraud
tainted as far as it will.
So turn to me tainted as they blow
winds to make me go.
Truth of a thousand lies with no mercy
they blow to make me go so embrace myself
despoiled as they despoil and swore i’d
clean this slate with great certainty
and God’s mercy to wash away.
so i darted madly into the rain and hail
into little clouds that felt like daggers of tears
from the torrents of lost dreams.
Thinly beneath the surface of never-ending
controlling feelings i found myself between walls
closing in — insecured! Bleeding blood and
worthless words so real //this tragic
reacting reflection of haunting life!
i found myself (god’s confidence
drained down the toilet of souls)
I feel as though i was here before
weeping wars of confused reality
how this flesh makes me sick.
Every-universe is inside me. But one spot
i keep for just me/as you\are we/i am and was
:: 03.18.2022 ::
i am t h e
l i tt le voice SCREAMING in deepest despair.
a little sparrow spoke to me from light years away. Singing Earth’s
songs. She perched upon an Oak Tree within my yard light years away.
I felt the wind upon my cheeks. The world now I am in is light years
away from h ome. I felt every corner of Earth. And our people.
When one is so far away from home you realize how much we are One.
The explorer i am.
I hear the planets known and unknown ; they have a song they sing
my control board records and it is more than what any human can comprehend.
A dot among dots in a universe of dots. Connected.
- some high math brains have called it matrix math.
The beauty of colors humans have yet to see.
The calmness of balance humans can never know in flesh.
We are the turtles crawling toward the ocean. To survive!
Once hatched we know the Ocean is our Home.
struggles and tears and fear and trying until death.
As salmon. Spawning.
So dangerous but so beautiful is LIFE AND LOVE.
:: 02.04.2021 ::
MY reproduction of love
so precise in detail
your sister distorted
Some say you are a fake
but truth becomes your right
in hyperreal distortion
I claim you as my own
Millennium have tried
to reproduce true nature
but in my century of pose
such claims took hold
Sorrowful metallic tears unfold
— facing naked prejudice
life is complete! — besides
composition of carbon or steel
You live but don’t breath
and eat but don’t thirst
and sleep but don’t dream
complete me you complete you
Some have asked a famous line:
do androids dream
of electric sheep
yes and more — such is love