SAVED BY AN SOS OF DESPAIR

yesterday i had a feeling so real
oh so me-oH! I FELT you should
rescue me cause i’m just a lost
soul in the ocean of life
AND years have pasted and so i lost
any feeling of survival : together,
love mends lives or breaks hearts
and i saw the shark of your heart
swimming my waters…yeah
so i sent a message in a bottle
pleading death ??????
And this morning was beautiful
like pinks and reds and a breeze
and AN OCEAN LINER with a line
saying, “we saw a heart sinking
toward the depths of despair!”
and i keep the meaning of you
inside the skeleton closet of
survivors who should never despair
and i loved you — once!

:: 0711-2015 ::


IF I SLEEP AND AWAKEN WITHIN A DREAM

IF I SLEEP AND AWAKEN WITHIN A DREAM

i believe uh huh, believe
in what we are missing
witness the ghosts leaving
a spread of oh what we are
space: and i believe i dream
and dream of father’s in deserts
and mother’s in oceans
i dream so far i hooked Leviathan
in shadows of all my shame
i dream i had a secret promise
only (what torture says) is me:
i dream so logical within all
my dreams and i dream away
dream i’m awake when i sleep
and who knows : if i measure
life by sleep then i’ve been
the long death –> sleep!
and if i sleep and awaken in
a dream i should dream love

:: 07-11-2015 ::


WHEN DAUGHTERS GROW UP

i was there when you took your first breath
just a bundle of love and the mountains moved
and i forgot how hot the sun burned
i saw you take your first step and even
your dance anytime music played — we
held hands like soul-mates and now you are
the sun and i’m the jealous sky; my sweet
dearest daughter i’m missing you so
So she took her love and went forward into
the skies and felt an arm in her heart
one who says, “if you forget the sun within
it’s jealous skies, i’m here always for you”
And she felt as her hair came down: i am your
love and daddy — let’s forget the sun in it’s
jealous skies
i forget the sun within it’s jealous sky

:: 07-11-2015 ::


IF I COULD NEVER HEAR OR CRY

oh, so lonely are the stop lights
like life we try to hide that keeps
us running hard
well, yes it’s a memory that keeps
hanging upon the apron strings of
souls who serve love upon a plate
of porcelain-hearts
Still, tears that shaped my heart
and somewhere broken dreams ;
willows weeping i catch their
tears in a cup of all my own heart
and i hear her voice in the night
and she hears my verse – i spend
eternally where we left off: i’m
tears she caught from me and what
she used to be and we’re forever
young: the kiss of a wish i wish
i could forget and the night has
it’s own voice /\/\/\
i wish i could never hear

:: 07-11-2015 ::


WHEN ANGELS GATHER

AT dusk just when
the light is full
i feel a game:
there is a man,
i worry: somehwere
out there and windmills
so silent my Clock
dimly cries when i’m
not ‘there’ and ever night
i stand fully stripped
of all my own mind — i’ll
never sleep and The Wind sings
go to sleep lovely and since
is never i should completely weep
but i know ‘out there’
there’s a flower (MY OWN
HEART) at midsummer’s keen
beyond and at dust just
when the light is full i
feel a game, there is a man
i worry ||

:: 07-11-2015 ::


A ‘WORD’ WEARING A SUIT

SAW a W O R D wearing a suit      theyRE sO alive
(when we dream damn hard)       swore on a bible i’m through
then threw-up on a giraffe in the highest stiletto heels
gave a priest the keys to the kiddie center after i’d
rigged it with nitroglycerin so i thought so i want so i need
to say mona lisa is crying
tears of blood at Louvre
and tonight i’ll smother in
the flesh of strippers and
tip the bathroom attendant
with a PhD in Philosophy
he always says, “Man is born
free and is everywhere in chains”

:: 07-11-2015 ::


THE SKINNY NECK

the skinny neck
eats my heart
a woman with crimson
shoes and stiletto
knifes stabs my heart!

having ceased like white-eyed
dead heads do : a dull quarter
dated oh’8 next to my blood
a Divine Average, for who
says because you’re paranoid!
who’s the waiter and what
is a customer when everyone
feeds upon one another?
and all the mouths of “o’s”
screaming “I’m crying and dying!”
we crawl out the cradle to soon
pressing lies and secrets into
busy life ~~ hey! WAIT! GO away!
last month’s rent crawling up the
stairs yesterday’s lover decaying
in the attic of your heart
so existence has a toll
and we ride upon the Leviathan!

:: 07-11-2015 ::


HAND JOB

“i feel pretty good”
says the puppet
with your fingers
inside my guts
the finger prints
touching my vulva
and i hate
how your third
finger never reaches
my heart!

:: FUCK YOU ::


FEELS SO LIKE BROKEN GUITAR STRINGS & HEARTS

(baritone voice)
CRITICS and audiences agree: “the best horror story of a decade”
(girlie man voice)
iT’S MORE THAN a feeling
  when i kill you     more than embryo (Tate!) and Manson
dances \ Come load up on guns, bring your friends It’s (sO) fun
to lose and pretend  Who knows if ;the moon
is balloon, coming out of a puss=eye purple windows, flat rooftops!
Towers!  I say reason!  You say you’re stupid, and here we are now!
for without LOVE i do not play!
Awe so cute and dirty kitty so shy i kept her in my wet arms and say
“behind the bath house we went, so stupid, and now!  ROAR!”
i so love you girl and now turn to all my verses ~~ too dangerous
to be on the roads tonight!
so HERE WE ARE NOW
:: 07-10-2015 ::

SECONDARY FLACCIDITY

WET sheets (of sweat) ~ i’m feeling
generally believing my own mortality
i feel: primary flaccidity eyelids
closed ooh oh yeah
a loss of tension in muscles and WHEN
i felt so much hung upon the footsteps
of life and no more and don’t
you cry when i’m gone
with the skin i’ve shed
rigor mortis is a last feeling in fingers
and toes so you got time to find
it: to find it! AND where is tomorrow?
Did you run away with the feeling of love?
And whose mask do you wear? And i got
time for just tomorrow for you to find it
And when my muscles loosen –~ times gone
and i’ve gone upward toward beyond tomorrow
and i lov eyou and i had time for tomorrow
but life burns moments and there you are //

:: 07-10-2015 ::