Monthly Archives: February 2022

DRAFT FOR THE CONTINUATION OF ‘A MAD POETWRITING BY CANDLE LIGHT OF ALL NIGHTS’

WOULD YOU dance a fugue behind
the outhouse / under the hands of beautiful
things that bloom, Oh! upon sacred plains where
shepherds go.
That once i loved Jessica the Nun! Within
her silk nun’s habit i saw her pendulous breasts
(i prayed to the cult of Virgins then) and stuck
my tongue within her mouth for penance
: God forgave the lesser angels as they are from
a different order. The rest of them congregated
as horny vampires and ate me while I held their
heads below the Church Steeple.

:: 02.20.2022 ::


The WAR Machine

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That is what i feel when i am
half empty.

That is what i feel when i am
half full.

that is what i feel
when i am
more than what is around me.

And when i die

it will all fade away

and as it fades away

i will feel again.

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That is what i feel when i am
half full.

That is what i feel when i am
half empty.

That is what i feel when i am
more than what is around me.

And when i die
it will all fade away.

And as it fades away

i will feel again.

^^

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NOW (ΤΩΡΑ)

Picking myself upward once again; this time within smaller pieces, feelings are dying within
the madness of what rules the air AND BELOW dwell sparks of lit Souls unaware whilst the hoard
approaches and feeds upon their dreams but never their Souls.
free of lust and love which at times will collide, your hearts won’t be blessed by action or by words
where happiness and wisdom reign the round of the table, around the loft, under the wine,
twixt the body and the mind, of me.
As the grey crust begins to show the deep brown of fresh clay. Every spoken word will bring down the mood
so I’ll focus on the one thing to keep my focus, I am alone.

Yet, by virtue of my physicality one hopes for a kind word. So, I’ll keep moving slowly, glancing back
to see if anyone has called my name or if a lonely soul who has wandered in from the road, after a long
bitter winter and often for centuries like day or night until I am emptied of the boredom into which
I’ve fallen finding no clue, in fact the world has grown even more bleak and seems to exist merely
for the sake of entropy and/or people who remain blind to their own shadow: I am yet a wonder.

Yet, there’s still something to be said of the smile of a baby whose touch wakes love in my heart.
A story to be told as a longing sigh even as it reminds me of another long ago as a grandchild can.
I am yet a wonder.

I’ve seen them come and go. I stand here in the darkness each time seeing one that knows I know,
he knows I know, he knows I know he knows, he knows I know, he knows and no one comes.

No one comes.

I have seen them quietly move in and out while other’s slept: I have seen the lights dim
and give up all light like a little league game where the score is tied — no one wants to win,
no one wants to lose, we all just want to play.

“Give me your hand and I’ll tell you something” I said. “I’ll tell you something. You’ll find out
where you’re going to be. You’ll know what this one is, and you’ll never forget, this was a friend of mine,
and you’ll never see him again. no matter what I promise. you’ll be in good hands.”

hold on.
hold on.
hold on.
no matter what, no matter what.
I promise.
I promise.


STAINS OF TIME

IF i could be born again
into dirt again
i would wish
to feel again
a familar thing
: sweet dear love

Oh what i become
& how everything
sinks:
my raised hand
would make you hurt
all broken bones
unrepaired stains
of time HOW YOU ARE
someone else & i
am still here ~

my dearest love
my dearest friend
who never goes away
in the END.

I give everyone i know
love and my hand & all
of my soul / gently
in broken prose.

:: 02.18.2022 ::


MY TONGUE TO NEVER

TEARS act with boldness: those who never see.

I spoke my tongue & never a word unclear _____ oh
how the world cuts me.

Decisions made: to give the world thousands of poems
of modern literature. To move across that line is
a psalm:

THE DECADENT MOUTH
[unknown page]

a piece of spinning sky
howling at the moon
said i was there /fool |
the brain loaded & questioned
whose answers died within my
arms and we’re going on and
on and coming down into the
little things that kill
her arms as ice
my tongue fire away away away
tearing brains and the small
pieces of meaning clear —
we preach between words
and destroy false meaning
: tear me into little pieces
and paste it into your broken
Heart

this kill.

:: 02.18.2022 ::


BABY FLESH INSIDE EMBROY

I smell your baby flesh inside
my embryo heart and took hookah
cord to strangled this dark romance.
My face fell downward to dirt
and kingdom ants ate my eyes:
built a tower of new tears;
a thin bridge toward your mind
She moves slowly towards me
like a doctor seeking new cancer
like candy pharmaceutical
feeding life / i’ve got a brain
oh yeah \ to surprise life
i crawled out of the vat of
dead babies to survive_____
She was sad, said, “take me to
my favorite place to eat to forget
this” her best friend cried.
I’d eat you if you were unborn.
Surprise! Hey, best yet: let
me kill your parents first.

Zero sum.

:: 02.18.2022 ::


PAIN

i HATE the THOUGHTS

BUT NEVER THE WORDS!

:: 02.16.2022 ::


DELICIOUS ALCHEMY

STOP brevity deep broken BONE
(wept dreaming crusades)
idiotic tears upon priceless paintings
oh motif bent deep in prose

Hello Latin Church, erotic books,
unfashionable literature — say,
gonna give all my LOVE : KISS
my flesh completely OFF & village
girls \ meet me in warm green mist
tomorrow’s afternoon? / give me…
my girl: deep down inside woman
i need you ~~~~~ LOVE!
Big mouth for colorful vowels!
A alpha, Z vertigo go______
To create crusades, voyages
of discovery to never be recorded:
tear apart the fabric called
evil Time | every form of Magic
then I am alone — it was always
me.

you budding hazel warm-green afternoon.
So great and flesh of heart — tides
of war.

:: 02.15.2022 ::


DESERTS OF LOVE

it came /gave slower moo-ju
like me ~~~~ left a flat mop
dust mote floating joker
inside me : eyes
wore no shoe shine
face without war paint
‘i can still get you
right now…all for me.’

promise i can put my feet
over me/into your\heart.
Right!

Gave all pennies to begging
boy with boxed pizzas before
the sun burst onto terrible
scene | i summoned executioners
to bite the words of my prose
all while inside my deepest
death throes. Plague to choke
myself and artifacts of psyche
i never enjoyed:
A great hideous laughter said
& endured — one never heard.

Death with all its appetites
devouring all our sin.

:: 02.15.2022 ::


GIVE ME BURBON

GIVE ME BOURBON

GIVE ME  BOURBON
 O seasons, Chateaux
a taste of pure snow
inside the rotten Soul

Upon  eyes a moon
upon finger tips
a learned sassy spell
that no one withstands

i want to take you home
give you all crypto-coin
tell mama she’s gone
ah shit:  body and soul
inside Sway ] kissing you
even if bad luck comes
(my way)  steel coming
to slice up that brain |
   & sever a nose,
lusty prowling Cat:
hint — his ribs are stone,
the flame a death that pleases
God if ventured i prayer.

:: 0.15.2022 ::

GIVE ME BURBON
O seasons, Chateaux
a taste of pure snow
inside the rotten Soul

Upon eyes a moon
upon finger tips
a learned sassy spell
that no one withstands

i want to take you home
give you all crypto-coin
tell mama she’s gone
ah shit: body and soul
inside Sway ] kissing you
even if bad luck comes
(my way) steel coming
to slice up that brain |
& sever a nose,
lusty prowling Cat:
hint — his ribs are stone,
the flame a death that pleases
God if ventured i prayer.

:: 0.15.2022 ::