Monthly Archives: July 2015

EYELESS DOLL HEART

you’re just a thief
dressed in sexy skin
like when I find
miserable relief
you take it away
and replace it with
an eyeless doll heart!
so I write each word
like each character
stabbing you and i
can feel you hating me
and I feel just fine at
a Walmart line
with Advil in my
bruised hand after hitting
the walls

:: 07-25-2015 ::


BY A CLOUD UPON THE MOUNTAIN

OH mirror in my heart what is love
and if i should sail through life would
seasons of my life follow?
so i took a walk around up toward a mountain
where the clouds kiss the ground and oh mirror
in my heart what is love can i make it through
all the changes of life and the seasons — well,
hmm, i have been so afraid of love and loss that time
has made my soul so old until i saw the smile
of a child within my heart so i walk up toward the
mountain of life and ah, i can see how foolish
humans can be so afraid but love is time
and as we go through life love becomes the bolder
as a teacher wishing we’re getting older and more wise
so i’m now building life around change and i’m bolder
too — oh mirror in my heart
i know what is love now

:: 07-25-2015 ::


OH GOD! I SHOULD CRY!

even WINGS
in sunlit burst-KISS
me as i purple-pink
you; love
we two know
smiles
as when i hug
the immense whole
of what i see in you
oh God! i should cry
if laughter did not
stumble God telling
me — YES! Two points
of a period within
a comma of life!

:: 07-25-2015 ::


STILL A PRECOCIOUS CHILD

if you love me

uoy evol i fi

i love you

em evol ouy fi dna

and i know dear…

i’m still a child
in my heart

tihs ym tae dna

LOL! I do love you!
forgive me. i do

LOVE YOU!!!!!

:: 07-25-2015 ::


THE MUSIC OF WORDS

VIOLINE I: Oh lovely life oh my love Oh love i say i adore you

violin ii: tears weep my mouth in all i feel seeing you

Viola: if love is God then i have met Him in Glory

Violoncello und Kontraba:

my dear, i am honored to be here with you now

the seasons were long and suns came up and

then silently went beneath my wishes

oh, i saw you in the sparrow and the green
tallest grasses my sweetest love
and now together!

:: 07-25-2015 ::


IS CAPTURED FOR THE QUEEN TO USE

If you go on your own way I give you a strength of cord
to make your way — for the King and Queen to use
if life says buttercups sing ‘captured and the Queen
weeps send it to me!’ With loving care. Cause it’s
for the King to use. I am common ti-di-diddit
diddit do remember the gold (it’s there) so don’t
surround yourself with yourself diddit diddit diddit
just come to me (yourself) and the fawn weeps
and the — did you see all the good people
who turn their faces and it’s a stronger course
that love and life moves me on to another square
and i sang a loving word to all life – captured!
and i sing cause it’s time and time is captured!
…………………………………….for the Queen
………..so i go now back to the corner of my life
// she hasn’t got time to make me a knight
But i’m captured surrounded by her loving care!
— for the Queen to use//my sister call upon me!
anytime anywhere for the Queen to use!

:: 07-29-2015 ::


GREEN & GOLD

BY caster lit moonlight
I ate ambivalence;
where Sun spread her
sheets upon the Earth’s
green bedding
and the fairies muddle
flittering in red roses
and river oh river
hushed it’s running
heart for this moment!
as green and gold spoke
between night’s gasping
inviting new promise
this new day!

:: 07-29-2015 ::


A WHORE FOR ZEROS AND ONES

Mary wakes up with a wet blanket
and Jesus thinks starbursts
really taste very sweet
hanging from a cross. and
m&m’s taste best when melted
in a hot mouth and hey hey
tried so hard to have had a father
and don’t hate Him anymore
self-appointed demigods who
have no servants to rule over
are little kids inside a sandbox
called agitated life and i like
m&m’s and starbursts so like
i thought before it’s a taste of
melted s’mores oh hell yeah
it’s teenage existentialism
a modern rain caught all inside
a pain of technological madness
and we’re all whores for
zeros and ones

:: 07-28-2015 ::


KALEIDOSCOPIC BEING

WISH i could be all of me without all the fights
and wouldn’t it be something so new
i’m so deeply affected // infected by love
and so I write ‘i feel i have no right’
taking all the blame then joking i knew
it’s how the merry goes round and I throw up
from this dizzy life and oh what fun
scary, scary times in the sun
guess i’m so easily amused
kissing the circus clown and hugging
all the carnies of this life beneath the big
top tent wishing I was so like you and salt
within the wound of my eyes and in my
heart so I know life is kaleidoscope
and in the sun in the wind I scream:
‘Scary! Scary!’
and so i dance with the dancing bear
and watch the clown on the high wire
and balloons kissing the big tent skies
we are all we are and all we know
so hello hello hell no on well it’s so

:: 07-28-2015 ::


A LITTLE BOAT AFLOAT

i made you happy in a noose twice tied
say how you cut y o u r s e l f
it makes you happy red blood rivers
and little boy with a paper boat
watches how you feed the river
from your veins And if you cut
my throat i could have sang how you
make his boat float upon the river
happy and i am frozen
happy and i am frozen
in all my pain
And you really know
i’m a senseless apprentice
how to knock and roll
my feelings -oh! don’t go away!
a little boy with a boat watching blood
float his dreams and i’m pulling the
plug and if you say “i’m
so happy, “watch the rock’n’roll
a boat in a river full of blood and
your happiness is the hull of a ship
that drowns in all
you dreams of!” GO AWAY! GO AWAY!
So don’t you fool yourself
keep yourself in a trunk
of ship buried so deep
and you never knew —
the boy without love or humanity.

:: -8=27-2015 ::